20100517

feel so loved~!


I Love You~~~ Do you love me too?

LOL. I am so loved those days. I am happy for my life right now~  
 I love somebody I love, and somebody who love me back...
 Somebody that accepted me as I am...Never wants me to change to fit him or her...
 But tried to fit me and love me no matter what I do and what I did to them~

DANIEL, SUHA, HOR YEAN, IRENE, VERN ERN, YIXIU,  MATTHIAS, JACKY, ESTHER, EVELYN, HEAN TEE, PREVIN, DAVID, MING KIT and more~

I am so thankful and appreciate what you guys have done for me~! really much!

And yeah, I may be kinda mean, rude or too straight forward when I talk. I wanna apologize here being like this... Somehow, I am doing this cause I love you guys~ 
*finding all sorts of reason* LOL


FRIEND????


LOVER???


 FAMILY????

No matter who you are to me~ I LOVE YOU~!

HAHA~ This post is basically expressing my love to my love ones. 

I love you guys~ 

X.O.X.O

VIVI 

20100506

♥ ♥ Just some short post about my life lately ♥ ♥


 

 Hey guys... sorry...the blogspot was kinda troublesome lately... but is okay

I just feels like blogging some of my latest life... 

don know why... I am pretty down, sad, exhausted nowadays. 

Just...complicated! I don really able to find a word to describe about my life. 

It's my very first time. It's like everything is so new to me. Although i am still in a place that i lived for 17year~

So fast~ everything just passed so freaking fast!  

I want it to be slow!!! Instead of so extremely fast...

I really need to study~ I really want to... 

Somehow... the feelings in my heart just mess me up and the thought in my brain...

I think there are alot of people also thinking this way... when things just happen in a same time

Love, Family, Friends, Studies, Social life and more and more...

maybe it's time for me to freshen up myself with some joy

I love peace... not boring life but peaceful and happy life... 

Start to listen to some Irish traditional music... i found that this type of music can just calm me down...

Anger, Frustrated, sadness, unforgiveness and stuff... I can just easily get it out of my mind...

of course...I also need to face the facts that... sometimes thing just can go as your will...

Love, ha ha! really special... I always believe... things that is belongs to you will always yours no matter how far it went... but if you insist of keeping those things that is not belongs to you, no matter how you hold it tightly or just tie it up also useless... one day it will just run away from you...

So i choose to let go... if He allow me to do that~ then i will always keep what i have said to you... 

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, and the things you never want to lose ♥"

I got it from one of my friends...

I actually don't know what i am trying to tell you guys... but just... my heart is so screwed up!

Believe me~ give me some times... i will get over it~

and I really hope that You can be the one~ that is worth for me to be in love with~

Love,
Vivi 
 


Enya- carribean blue






20100326

Nobody~~~


Emptiness as a human condition is a sense of generalised boredom, social alienation and apathy. Feelings of emptiness often accompany dysthymia,[1] depression, loneliness, despair, or other mental/emotional disorders such as borderline personality disorder. A sense of emptiness is also part of a natural process of grief, as resulting of separation,[disambiguation needed] death of a loved one, or other significant changes.

This is what i get on the net... What is emptiness~
everybody... emptiness this things is very scary

People keep telling me that... "Life goes on no matter what"
yeah.. totally agreee with it.  But, COME ON~! you will feel hard to breath, can't do anything if you are having this kind of feeling...

More actual - GOOD ENOUGH TO KILL YOU~! 

 you guys in love before? I believe that nobody will say NO right?
Guys...if you know... how difficult it would be if you LOVE a person soooo much
But you can't be with him and only can be a very very very close friend with him...
And can only PROCLAIM EACH OTHER AS BROTHER AND SISTER IN FRONT OF  EVERYBODY ! ! !
  
I can't sleep those days... Because of YOU~! 
And I know you too... but why are you keep thinking that you're gotta hurt me?

NO~! my dear... you're not hurting me and you're NOT GONNA hurt me~
Still remember you told me before? you said I'm strong... strong enough to stop and control myself from most of the things...
But why can't you just trust me once on this?

Think about you days and nights... you know HOW EXCRUCIATING IT IS? HOW MISERABLE IT IS?

although you're sitting right next to me... but i will still feel that you're gonna leave me and erase me from your life and memories~!

YOU'RE SO NEAR... YET SO FAR AWAY FROM ME~!

i can't reach you cause you're keep a distance away from me!
i really don't like it... and I keep on keep it to myself... all my tears, my scream... i don't show it to you... cause i know you've tried your very best not to hurt me~

I told you before... instead of keeping a distance with me and trying so hard not to hurt me~ why don't we just give each other a chance? To have our very own memories~

I don care you're leaving soon or what... but I just want you to remember me and you yourself also understand that we CAN'T be brother sister nor very best friend...

CAUSE WE WILL CROSS THE LINE~! URGH~!

I love you~ really much~ you know that?
what you said to me is even more hurtful than your leaving... you understand?

But... i know i can't force you... and i will never force you... cause it's USELESS~!

but, i'm so glad that i get to meet you and being in love with you...
so happy that you're always with me... maybe sometimes i'm being very annoying, and STICKY TOO~! but you never say a word... LOL...

THANK YOU~! D...I LOVE YOU~ SO MUCH~
hugs hugs... i am so looking forward the special night that we're gonna spend together...
I will appreciate that very moment... cause that's the night belongs to both of us~
and remember...I am always here for you...

once again...
I LOVE YOU! AND I MISS YOU SSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH~!
kisses and hugs...*muah muah muah*  
 


20100311

Urgh!!!! what's wrong with my blog?

Haiz.currently having some problem on posting those photos.

i got alot of stuff to share about. cause i spend quite alot last month. 

And everybody! i discover a very nice basic three step skincare. 

so... once i get to settle my problem i'll post it up immediately. sorry...

AND STAY TUNED!!! 

20100228

What i want~!!!

hmm~ this year... i feel like buying alot of stuff.. really alot...

okay fine!!! i admit it... my friends all said i'm a shopaholic... but i just can't stop buying... 

but of course there are alot of stuff that i can't get it right here... need to travel all the way down to KL or other country... 

but everybody, i'm still a student... got budget... so need to go look for the prices, do survey then i only will decide to buy which one..

i am a smart shopaholic at least... but sometimes, sometimes only i will just buy it down without thinking.. LOL!!!

okay now.. let me tell you guys... WHAT I WANNA BUY THIS YEAR...

I plan it to use one year time to buy it... or maybe more than one year cause i am having SPM this year... but still... i won't stop buying stuff...

okay okay... i'll stop murmuring now...

2010 SHOPPING LIST 

1. Jackets ( Trench Coat , Leather Jacket and bla bla bla... still searching)

2. Gown ( more casual type, girly, mature gown)

3.Boots (ankle boots, knee height boots and bla bla bla)

4. Cardigan

5. Long top

6.Chiffon dress and top

7.Cami

8. Oxford Heels

9.Denim

10. Hoodie

11.Sport Shoe

12.Trendy sneakers

13. intimate apparel *shy*

14.Vest

15. Beach wear

and to be continue... LOL!!! 

hey, don get mad at me... maybe i will cut down some...  but these is what i want right now... LOL!!!

Bye everybody... i will update my blog once in a while... and i will still share abit about what i bought okay... i won't for get you guys...  


LOVE YOU~!

X.O.X.O

♥♥ Vivi ♥♥   
 
 

20100225

FINALLY!!!

okay, i know everybody...it has been a lonf time for me to reupdate my blog already...

cause i already move it to WRETCH...

i can't really type chinese here... it will keep on pop out something and just close my whole window... ISH ISH ISH...

ieverybody please relink my blog...

MY NEW BLOG

now... this blog will only be my daily diary...

bye...

X.O.X.O.