Idiot! Liar! Stupid!

Ah~~! Really feel like killing myself!!!!!!!! Idiot idiot! i can believe you will do this to me... i thought we are friends... UNBELIEVABLE! how can you do this to me... you lie to me... without blinking you eyes! stupid~!

i really thought we are sisters althought i am not studying in CDK... oh my gosh!i treated you as my bestfriend, sisters. but you do this to me... you need money to use just tell me straight away no need to lie to me that you went to genting and can't pay me back my money. 

you owe me for don't know how many months d... i think already 7 months. do you expect me to let you owe anymore... do you know how much you owe me?! it's a lot you know

you lie to me is ok... but why you so mad at me... is i am the one who should be mad. don't want to make friends with me?! hah! who you think you are? har!? you are just nothing!always borrow money from me without returning. 

don try to make me mad! i am not as childish as you... hah! don't want to make friends with me... i am so sorry that i should remind you something! it's i am the one who don't want to make friends with you... who want to make friends with a liar! 

KOREA!! hooray...

"Korea Korea Korea... Vivi always Korea one...! haiz" that is what my friend's comment about me... is it a shame? i don think so... *Hehe*

I don't know why... Just really really like Korea very much... But i also like other countries language... learning foreign language that you cnnot unberstang is very fun and excite... you can enjoy it... cause t cam make you know more people from other country...

I like Korea the most... don't know why... my mum said it is because i wanna look at handsome guy... but i also got watch Japanese movie what... but i just don really feel like learning it... although i am learning now... 

i felt that Japanese is more hard than learning Korean... you know why? Japanese... one word have more than one pronouncation...*don't know i spell correctly a not!*

and Korean words is like puzzle... really fun... haha... that's why i am interested in Korean... can also learn it from movie...

update!! Fresh From Oven!

I won't be able to join the AFS program already... Miss out the appointment... 

They said they might loss the application form half on the deliver...

I am so sad... Why is it so hard for me to get a thing a want smoothly?

I went to the AFS's website just now... I know i might not be able togo although i got the interview letter... But at least i won't regrets because i've try my best...

But now... My heart is full of disappointment...

I really really wanted to go for the program!

I really don't want to miss out this Program...

I know if i go next year i can go for the one year program...

But i really wanna fly out from M'sia... I don't want to stay in M'sia anymore...

I am getting more and more frustrating and more and more hatred towards M'sia!

It's all because of HIM! The BETRAYER!! 

I hope he can get out og my sight...

Keep on saying that 'I am you dad!'

but i am so so so sorry to tell you that... 

from the day you beaten me... we are not daughter and dad anymore...

I am so full of hatred nowadays... I thought i have overcome it... but the hatred still there... hope to leaving M'sia!!!

LET ME OUT!! I AM NOT GOING TO STAY IN M'SIA ANYMORE!!!

Sad... don know why....Friendship...

After reading my friend's blog... feel so sad...my friend... ya she is my friend... but don know why i feel like they don't like me so much... i hope to have a very very close friends... mix with me everytime... accompany me when i am sad, lonely... i hope she can enjoy the time when she's together with me...

Friendship... ... ... ...*i feel so sad, miserable,though of feeling*           is it really still... my friends... won't stay beside to too long...they don't like to mix with me... i want a friend!!! i want a true friendship... i don't want to be alone...

To Ning~~~~

i want to be your best friend... that is what i really hope... but 've no confident to myself... you have alot of friends... but me no... sometimes you seems to be quite cold to me.. just like this few days... i wanna talk to you... but everytime i go to your place... you guys seems like chatting somethings that i can't be involve in... i can only sit there and keep on listen to what you guys talking about... i hope to mix together with you huys truely... i know there is alot of things that i cannot kow... but i just hope that you guys can invite me to sit together with you guys when i am lonely and helpless...

it's not i am cmplaining anything...i just wana to let you guys know my feeling and what hope to...you may not experience it... being alone isn't a great thing... i start hating this feeling now... it seems to be alot of people don't like me...*sob sobs*

To whom who hate and dislike me...

me... not lying... what i said last time is really really true.. but... you guys just CRITICIZE me without thinking my feeling... i feel so hurt and sad when somebody told me what you guys were walking about at the back of me... i tried to be still and strong, although... but my tears was flowing in my heart... i tried to change myself... but

what can i do?? what you guys expect me to be?? can't i just be myself?? i am a human too... i need friends!! need love from my friend too!! but you guys just telling people that i am a liar!!

LET ME MAKE MYSELF CLEAR once again!!!!!! i am not a liar... what i said is true... you guys don know the whole story and just kept on backslided me!! 

I seriously Hate you guys very much!!

now... ... my friend only left Ning, Momo, Swee Ting, Gim Shang... 

Is this what you guys pleased to be?? Alright! you guys get what you want now!!Satisfied?? i know the answer is YES!!

 you guys make my life so miserable!!

you guys will get what you plant... that is the only thing i can say...

Hi... I'm "Back"...

long time no update my blog already...brother was using it to do his assignment and so i didn't get to online...

life is seriously so boring... hope to run away from house, school, and Malaysia...i don want to stay in Malaysia anymore... it's so tiring for me... but still i have to finish up my studies... SPM is coming next year... there is one more years to go... 

school... ... ... i like it when i am boring... hate it when i am tiring... learning Korean and Japanese, reading love storybooks, online, watch movie... it's my entertainment and a way to express my feeling......

learning Korean and Japanese is because i want to go to their country... what Korea attract me? maybe is their food... their language... their natural beauty... and theirs churches too.. there is a most biggest church in this world in Korea... it's on the Yoido island... there can contain don know how many thousands of people...there are alot of things Korea attracted me... and their fashion too... celebrities too...

How bout Japan? and what is the most famous in Japan... of course, is their fashion and technology...i like foreign language... and so interested in those language that i can't even understand... it's fun and excited to discover their history, culture and so on...

~Vivien~

Haiz... Sad sad day

so sad la... my face keep on "ecdysis"...

it's painful and itch...

when back to the clinic again...

the doctor said it's okay cause it try to day up my pimples...

hope i can get a nice clear face...

yesterday didn't blog... cause mother was using the internet

1 year ago i used to have a very good friend which i treated her as my sister...

she is an athlete... she used to be in the diving team...

and now she changed to be an archery...

she message me yesterday... few weeks ago she went to Poland...

i am so admire her.. cause she get to go oversea frequently...

we chat and we stop... we chat and we stop...

maybe you guys don't know what i mean...cause there is a story behind this...hmm~it's not suitable to talk about it on the blog...

but anyway, it's quite surprise...

my grandma was fighting with the cancer cell since a few years ago...

when to the hospital with she after the school...

it's the last stage of the stomach cancer... the doctor told us that her stomach is full of water now... in the water there are alot cancer's cell in there...

so the cancer cell would spread easily and faster...

i know my grandma won't last too long... i know the truth but i just can't stop feeling sad...

the to the clinic tropica... again... i've been there before also because of my face problem...

i went back to buy a cream... the cream is also effective to me... 

the cream that is given by clinic lee are not suitable to use it under the sunlight

and the clinic tropica's cream is suitable... so i bought one...

a small bottle cost me 9buckz...

oh my gosh!! i am going to bankrupt if i keep using those cream...

but no choose... who asked my face is you troublesome...

p/s: i keep going to clinic this few days... it wasted alot of money in the medicine.

~~Vivi~~

It's sunday...

it's sunday today...  but i didn't go to church...

can't wake up... blueksss...

after i use the doctor's medicine...

my pimples and acne really getting better

luckyly... i was so scared my face won't get heal...

but now no need to worry anymore...

you guys can go try the doctor's medicine...

but my mum said the medicine that heal you very fast, it would be contain alot of steroid which will cause your face sensetive if you use it long term...

but the medicine really work... so i don't care...

as long as my face can get better...

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